Contributions - You and Me

All literary articles and poetry contained herein are written by staff, patients and trainees of MPF-RBR Pasig and Cebu. Some names have been changed or omitted to maintain confidentiality.

You and Me by C.C.

I am different from you,

You are different from me

You love your ups and downs

I love my ups and downs

You love your own world

I love my own world

If our worlds meet and

Walk as one then we

Can grow old together

Because for my world

Love is two bodies with one mind But if not, so be it.

Contributions - BROKEN PIECES

All literary articles and poetry contained herein are written by staff, patients and trainees of MPF-RBR Pasig and Cebu. Some names have been changed or omitted to maintain confidentiality.

BROKEN PIECES by laime

l live for you day by day
‘Til the time you have to go away
I look for you everyday
With only one thought: are you okay?

I cried out loud
But no one hears my shout The mind and heart
Are so tarn apart.

These broken pieces Will never be fixed
The hugs and the kisses Will always be missed Loved by you is all I wish.

Contributions - 192010

All literary articles and poetry contained herein are written by staff, patients and trainees of MPF-RBR Pasig and Cebu. Some names have been changed or omitted to maintain confidentiality.

192010 by PA

an ordinary day made extraordinary,

this was the day when I met my true self and

said hello to all the things I’ve been hiding from

for years I numbed myself never knowing that

I've already deprived myself of a full life

never realizing that I’ve hurt and pushed away

the people who genuinely cared about me

the day I decided to make myself whole again

picking up all the shattered pieces and gluing them

up all together again now

the funny part is who would’ve thought that

the place that seemed so horrible to me would be my

glue to help me put back all

the pieces right where they’re supposed

to be now this is my strength, my safe harbor

I believe I’m right where I

should be and I am ready.

Speech delivered by Cebu’s Dr. Pureza Trinidad Onate

The following is the keynote speech delivered by Cebu’s Dr. Pureza Trinidad Onate during
RBR Cebu’s First Reunion.

Let me read you a testimonial of a reformed person who went through a valid and well planned treatment program:

“pgp first two times I went to treatment when I got home I was overjoyed, euphoric, I was on cloud nine. I exclaimed – I finally lick my addiction to drugs (particularly shabu and of course my very bad alcohol habit)!

I went to rehabilitation because I could not stop doing the same patterns in my life all over and over again on my own, right? Obviously, psychosocial rehabilitation centers specialize in helping people, so I might do well to actually take their suggestions and follow through with them.

The first two times I went to treatment, I did not do this. For example, they suggested I go to long term treatment, and I refused. In shunning their advice, I ended up relapsing very quickly after leaving both of those rehabilitation programs. The last treatment center I went to, I did take their suggestions, and followed their recommended treatment plan to a “tee, ” to the letter as they say. I have been clean and sober ever since. ”

The biggest stumbling block for most of us, oould be when we ask ourselves this question – Why and How come we allow other people to decide how we should live our life? A good number of us believe we should be the most qualified person to make decisions about our life. Turns out this is not the case, because we continued to slowly put our persons, ourselves in unknowing abandon with repetitive unpleasant and dreadful behavior including drugs and alcohol use when we are left to our own devices. Amazingly enough, when we started taking advice from others, our life started to get a whole lot better-and a whole new world of self-determination and freedom is opened up to us. Perhaps it still puzzles many of us that this could come from letting other people suggest how we should live our lives. We become bewildered that the more we give up control the freer we become of our once upon a time rotten selves.

The length of time we have spent in the residential treatment program is a drop in the bucket compared to the number of years we expect to live in this wholesome world, and please do not expect to live “happily ever after” – without some serious follow up after your stay in rehabilitation program. Recovery is a life long process. Healing is a continuous process. Therefore, any recommended after care that they suggest to us should be taken seriously and approached with eagerness and zest.

This is the number one most effective form of aftercare, and I believe it is anyone and everyone’s best shot at maintaining long term sobriety and a happier life. This should be especially inviting to you if you have been to drug rehab before and failed to stay clean or if you had been in psychiatric treatment and refused maintenance medications as an out patient.

We must approach our aftercare manner in every aspect that we need to re-establish inner harmoriy and find our place in our family and community. Mental Disorder is a holistic disease that affects every aspect of our lives. It afTects our health and our bodies over the long term and degrades our physical quality of life. For example, the incredible boost that you get if you exercise vigorously every day, stop smoking cigarettes, stop taking alcohol and other addictive sub'stances, and start eating a healthier diet. It we do all 3 of these things then that is part of a holistic approach to recovery, yet how many people would suggest this in traditional recovery circles? Who are the winners? The winners are the people in recovery who are actively creating a new life for themselves. They are definitely not whining and complaining. Instead, they take action. They create.

There is a lot of depth to the holistic approach and you can examine and make changes in every area of your life, including mental, emotional. social, and spiritual aspects.

There are two powers of the human soul – the self-searching and the self-forming power. According to him we must know ourselves our negative as well as the positive aspects of our nature. We must sincerely look for them within ourselves and accept ourselves as we really are. Without self-awareness or self-searching we will not become aware of the work needed to be done. How we can make progress and build up our strength within ourselves?

When our self-searching has pulled us through then and only then can we resolve to our self-forming power. When a man looks into himself, he discovers desires, appetites, passions, which terminate in himself, which crave and seek his own interest, gratification, distinction; then he realizes these make happen another principle, an antagonist to these, which is impartial, disinterested, universal, enjoining on him a regard to the rights and happiness of other beings, and laying on him obligations which must be discharged, cost what they may, or however they may clash with his particular pleasure or gain.

Let us thank God for what has been gained. But let us not think everything has been gained. Let us feel that we have only started in the race. How much remains to be done! As I earlier mentioned renewal, recuperation, or healing is a lifelong process for all of us.

Contributions - CHRISTMAS AROUND MY FAMILY

All literary articles and poetry contained herein are written by staff, patients and trainees of MPF-RBR Pasig and Cebu. Some names have been changed or omitted to maintain confidentiality.

CHRISTMAS AROUND MY FAMILY
by E.L

Christmas Season is just around the block. We were all geared up for our December 13, 2009 Lay Forum. Relatives were all set for the show and we were eager and happy to see them. With music blasting, the facility was filled with the Yuletide spirit.

It was around 2:00 pm when we started preparing for our Christmas presentation. Although I was very busy minding my own preparation, I kept on thinking about how I would react upon seeing my family that afternoon. How can I describe the feeling where I feel close to home yet I’m kept far away? Yes, it was eerie. The recollection of emotions – happiness and affections of my once condescending heart made me realize I never knew I can miss them this much.
The clock struck 3:15, and the show began. I can hear the first group performing outside and the audience clapping. I was sure that my family would be there. Sad thing is we are not allowed to talk to or go near them. Finally, it was our group’s turn to perform. Then, I saw them. Another weird feeling came to me: Am I happy? Sitting 15 meters away from me, the people from whom I want to ask forgiveness, are already there smiling and waving at me like I have been forgiven. I kept on looking at them while still doing my number. Then I glanced at my fellow trainees, then at the other families, and back at my family. All of them were smiling, beaming with pride and looking very content. I thought to myself: This is even better than spending Christmas around the world. Seeing our loved ones – our families and friends – laughing, applauding, smiling and just being there can bring me Christmas everyday.

Contributions - CHRISTMAS IN RBR

All literary articles and poetry contained herein are written by staff, patients and trainees of MPF-RBR Pasig and Cebu. Some names have been changed or omitted to maintain confidentiality.

CHRISTMAS IN RBR
by R. Cruz

Initially I thought that spending Christmas Eve away from my family and inside a treatment center would be the worst thing that could ever happen to me. Just the mere idea of it got me more and more depressed as the date drew nearer. I was dreading it, with the certainty that it was going to be a sad and miserable occasion.

But once again, just like my stay in RBR has taught me, life is full, of surprises and unexpected blessings. First on the list is, of course the abundance of food. It was literally a feast. Then there were the gifts from our families. I could see the eyes of my co-trainees light up and their grim faces turn into big smiles.

However, the light in our eyes and the laughter that filled the dining area had something to do with the warmth inside us, rather than material things. It was something intangible. Magical. It was a feeling of overflowing joy and a sense of belonging caused' by the realization that even if we are away from our biological families, we now belonged to a new and different kind of family: a family that stands by each other in our similar struggles towards sobriety.

Because of how I spent Christmas Eve in RBR, I reahze now, that life is indeed full of blessings and wonderful surprises.

Contributions - A True Story... Or blot?

All literary articles and poetry contained herein are written by staff, patients and trainees of MPF-RBR Pasig and Cebu. Some names have been changed or omitted to maintain confidentiality.

HALLOWEEN SCARE
(A True Story... Or blot?) by laime

Thriller! Katatapos lang ng unang tsunami sa bahay. Ngayon, tila may parating na naman.

Nag-uusap kami sa female dorm after lights off. “Hay! Wala ba kayong naririnig? May umiiyak ba? Sagot sa akin: “Matulog ka na nga. Nagha-hallucinate ka ba?” Ang buntis kong kasama, natakot: “Oy! Wag kang ganyan. Baka malaglag ang dinadala ko”. Mahaba pang usapan...blah, blah, blah. Biglang tumahimik. Tila may dumaang anghel. Finally, may nagsalita: “Patayin ko na nga ang ilaw”.

Akala ko ako lang ang di makatulog at guni-guni ko lang ang aking naririnig. Mga kaluskos, bulungan, at kahol ng aso sa backdrop ng bilog na buwan. Lumakas ang ingay kaya’t di ko na napigilan tumayo. Mula sa kinatutulugan, napadungaw ako sa labas ng bintana. Na-shock ako sa mga aninong nakita ko, at may isang biglang tumalon na parang paru-para. I thought, malik-mata lang ito. Then I heard someone shout: “Ahh! May tumatakas! May tumatakas!”. Nagbangunan ang lahat sa kinakahijaan. Sabay bukas ng shutter. “GENERALASSEMBLE!”, sigaw ng kaitaas-taasan. “COUNT OFF!”. “One, two, three, four... forty-one, forty-two.” Bulong ko sa sarili: “My gosh, kulang ng tatlo!”.
HOUSE DEAL NA!!!

RBR CEBU REUNION - THE LONG WALK HOME

It is a known fact that the program of Roads and Bridges to Recovery (RBR) is not a short one – one year, at least, as a matter of fact. It is another known fact that the program of the therapeutic community is fraught with difficulties and trials. Here, within this span of one year, trainees (entrants to the program are addressed as trainees rather than patients) come to terms with the world and more importantly, come to terms with themselves. It is a controlled environment that mimics the outside world, albeit, in a more intense way, in order to bend behaviors and mend ways. Itis a place where you get to learn new skills and habits and a remarkably fresh perspective of life, a place where you learn new things and unlearn old ones. If I were to describe it, I would describe it fondly as being like a school.

And as schools go, we go to RBR, walking our way into it, ignorant of our faults and blind spots. A year or so later, we find ourselves, walking out of the experience, new beings, conscious of the way we are each interlinked with one another and therefore, learned of the fact that we affect others by our ways and by our deeds. In that one year of staying in the therapeutic community, we move about inside a program the way we do in school and we dwell inside our rooms and do our chores, much as we do things at home.

For this writer, walking back into this reunion of kindred spirits was akin to taking that journey of meeting brothers and sisters I once shared spaces, times, and selves with – a journey back home.

It was joyous celebration as brothers and sisters in the program from parts of the Visayas and Mindanano made that special trip for that one night in September 27, 2009, to “walk home”. We came dressed formally, and dressed in new selves. We came with huge smiles on our faces, but with a solemn reverence for each other deep within. We came expecting a diner feast in the historical Marco Polo Hotel, but we also came expecting to be students and brothers once more.

The quaint simple but regal invitation cards drew us out from our private holes and into that special night. RBR’s indigenous Lifeport Band played magnificent tunes and the food was simply, as they say in French, “C’est magnifique!!” RBR Cebu’s three special mothers were there (I call them the force majeure of the center): Dr. Benita Sta. Ana-Ponio, Dr. Fareda Fatima Flores, and Dr. Pureza Onate. Like shepherds guiding their flock, they stayed and mingled with us – nmve lambs no more, patients and trainees quite so perhaps, but sons and daughters definitely.

Seasons pass and seasons go. Ecclesiastes says, “There is a time to sow and a time to reap, a time to laugh, a time to weep...” For RBR-Cebu, it was a season of: hello’s once again, a time to harvest smiles and memories, a time to sow unity and fellowship (RBR-Cebu trainees are forming an alumni association for the benefit of the trainees and the center), a time for laughter, a time to weep silent happy tears.

In closing, these “walks home” do not simply occur in parties as this one. Any discharged trainee or patient of MPF-RBR Cebu can always take that “long walk home,” everyday should he/she elect this to be. That is how committed and sincere MPF-RBR Cebu is. Happy trodding everyone!

Lay Forum Fetes Christmas Season





As the year ended, patients and trainees in both the Pasig and Cebu facilities of MPF-RBR made the Lay Forum part of their holiday celebration.

In keeping with the tradition of lay forums past, trainees and patients presented the song and dance number for which they have been preparing in the past three months, all rendered at performance level as instructed by their mentors. The forums were initiated to help serve as a venue for patients and trainees to showcase their performing talents to the relatives who attend the event.

The forum was just one of the events held to celebrate Christmas in Pasig and Cebu. Part of the special accession was a party held for the residents of the facility, to help bring cheer during a time often spent with their families. MPF-RBR proved to be a home away from home for the patient and trainees as food and goodwill overflowed druing the said event.

Led Carpet Ready at MPF-RBR Pasig 2009 Employees' Christmas Party

MPF-RBR staff was dressed to the nines during last year’s employees’ Christmas party as they called on their personal fairy godmothers to supply them with trendy threads for the yearend event.

As part of the facility’s tenth anniversary celebration, MPF-RBR management requested that employees come in formal wear: that is gowns, cocktail dresses and Barong Tagalog to the party.

It was a red carpet replication because everyone had the opportunity to have their photographs taken together with the family members who accompanied them to. the party.

Everyone was on Santa’s list that night as each of the employees were given the chance to join in the tweaked Deal or No Deal game, hasted by General Manager Marwynne Rivera and RBR Officer in Charge Adrian Libatique. There were no losers as winners got to bring home coveted prizes such as gift packs, DVD players, microwave ovens and washing machines.

Newbies were also rewarded for the gumption, dancing in front of an appreciative audience, with cash from Managing Director Dr. Fareda Flores.

The night concluded with the handing out of Christmas bonuses by Executive Director Dr Benita Sta Ana-Ponio and husband Dr. Eddie Ponio.

MPF-RBR Promotes Envirnmental Awareness Through the Arts


The slew of typhoons that visited the country in the latter part of the year may seem to have spared no one, but it is fortunate news that MPF-RBR emerged practically unscathed by Nature’s rampage.

In September, the first of the typhoons, Ondoy, made landfall in Luzon, leaving in its wake close to Php 9 billion in damage and leaving most of Metropolitan Manila under water for months to come. Together with Typhoon Pepeng, the damage came close to Php 30 billion with 600 casualties, according to the Office of Civil Defense.

Despite these bleak realities, M.P.F’s Pasig competence was safe Mother Nature’s wrath as it remained dry while surrounding areas in the city were submerged in water.

Although there was a lack of physical damage to the facility, General Manager Marwynne Rivera noted that he also had fears during the period of crisis.

Among others, he said that he was afraid that electricity supply would be unreliable during the days following the typhoon. In addition, he said that securing food was an issue because the market where the hospital procures its supply also went underwater.

More specifically, he said that some of the staff had to go on straight 24-hour duties to cope with having to let other personnel take time off to deal with the after effects of the typhoon.

“I was concerned about how the stress would affect the staff who had to go on straight duties because of the flooding, but thankfully they coped very well,” he added.

Citing his personal experience, Marwynne said that he had to go on a two week leave to handle the destruction brought about by the typhoon to his property.

“I personally took the leave to attend to the damage caused by the typhoon to my personal property. It was a complete wreck so I had to start from scratch,” he said.

Also’, some of the staff had to stay over because they preferred not to brave the floods surrounding the areas around their homes.

With the damage brought about by the typhoons, Marwynne was proud to point out that the staff was able to avail of the assistance offered by the government through its housing agency PAG-IBIG and the Social Security Service (SSS).

“Their contributions to these agencies have always been updated so we just assisted them by giving out assistance application forms and the like. The staff that needed such assistance was able to avail of it,” he noted.

As a thanksgiving for being spared the wrath of a very destructive – force of Nature, MPF management decided to make environmental the theme of its partnership night with the pharmaceutical companies held last November.

During the said event, partner pharmaceutical companies of MPF-RBR pledge financial support for the programs the facility organizes to enhance and complement the treatment plan for trainees and patients. Some of these activities include the summer sports fest, the quarterly lay forum and the bi-annual newsletter of the facility.

Called “Global Warning: A Commitment to Partnership,” the said event highlighted the need to be aware and active in helping rehabilitate and hopefully preserve the environment, given the destruction that progress in the past centuries entailed.

In her speech during the event, MPF-RBR executive director Dr. Benita Sta. Ana-Ponio said, “events in the past year reminded us that despite our success in our undertakings, everything would be meaningless if all we had worked for will be gone in the blink of an eye because of our neglect of the environment.”

Further. Dr. Ponio noted, “we share one wish with the whole world: that is. to protect the gift we have been given and enjoy the benefits attached to Life and being alive.”

‘Formerly, we decided on a Pirates of the Caribbean theme, but given the situation around us, we thought it would be improper to have a very lavish celebration when some of our countrymen were still suffering from the after effects of the floods and the typhoons,” Marwynne stressed.

The highlight of the event was the photography, painting and poetry competition, which was open to everyone in the hospital, be they patients or staff; Grand prize winners got to go home with Php 5.000 each.

Marwynne recalled that the facility has held competitions in the past. but they focused on the other skills of the personnel and patients. such as in arts and crafts. He added that usually, the partnership night was a venue to show the performing capabilities of the trainees and patients.

‘Yv'ith the current contest, we also wanted to show that we have a holistic approach to treatment in the hospital. It shows that therapy doesn’t just take place in the consultation room. We tapped the regular art classes held here for the patients to enable the contest,” he stressed. “As for the staff, we wanted to show that we are proud of their work.”

The paintings, photographs and poetry that were created for the contest were also used in the 2010 planner commissioned by the hospital as a holiday giveaway to doctors and other partners.

Meanwhile, while the recent experience with typhoons brought to light the need to be more environmentally aware, Marwynne said that lessons from the said experience have translated to a more acute observance of the MPF’s green initiatives, such as recycling non-biodegradab materials and waste water from the water treatment facility.

“However, we will still be on the lookout for other possible measures we can adapt. he added.